psychedelic regression

2006-11-29T02:30:00.000+08:00

Don't wait for me to look at that mirror
What's visible is my shadow
And how the wind blows into me
You look up and learn the dots
Far ahead's nothing but some lights
Fingers against the wood
Nothing but darkness and sounds of joy
If i'd end this way
I'd end with a smile
Not a care less about tomorrow

And there's no such thing as happily ever after
It just gets dafter

2006-10-24T15:15:00.000+08:00

unfair
adj 1: showing favoritism [syn: partial] [ant: impartial] 2: not fair; marked by injustice or partiality or deception; "used unfair methods"; "it was an unfair trial"; "took an unfair advantage"; [syn: unjust] [ant: fair]

2006-10-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU ALL! I'M 18!

its wonderful having your friends do smthin for u on ur bday. Best of all.. Making a surprise for someone is not a one night thing. May, Gary and Pearlyn.. thank you guys so much for that memorable evening. 1st time i've got a celebration man! And to Sean who wanted to rush down to join me for my b'day.. Big thanks too though we didn't.

What's more is 6th October is on lantern playing day too! Lantern festival? isit. Yea and played with sparklers and a lantern.. Had delicious chocolate cakes.. 18 warmly lit candles on the ground to signify my new age.. and not forgetting the really awesome Stussy Polo tee for me. I LOVE IT. Next time we go out i'll wear it ;)

To Gary.. dude....... its been great knowing you for what? 7 years already man. Since sec 1 when u kept bullying me. hahaha. and at times in sec 3. ass. Anyway, we've been through alot, shared alot and helped each other out alot. Trashing me in games and all. Its still been fun. Hahhaha. Take care man.. i'll seeya really soon. Ride or smthin and hang out more after ur O's definitely. ALL THE BEST OK!

To Pearlyn. Although we don't talk much.. Its not awkward hanging out with you. Someone friendly and cheerful eh! Thank you so much for being part of the birthday celebration as well and also.. i'll seeya soon again! =)

To May, You have been really important in my life.. and all this while i've had so much fun being with you. When i think of you, its the really special memorable moments with you that never fades away. Seeing you put so much effort into my birthday, i really thought u didn't have to. But i really loved it and don't always say its disorganized. Coz its so hard to get everything done in a short time. Besides you got work right? Gotta be pretty tired. I'll get you another Hershey's Kissables? ;) Thanks for coming into my life and sharing our joy in being with God. It really is a blessing to know you. Gary and Pearl too. =P Something very special will definitely blossom from this r'ship alright. Do take care and its only 1 1/2 month more to finishing your attachment. I know its hard.. Hang in there!!! He will guide you towards success ok? Stay being ultra uber sweet my girl.. and super lame! =D

Gonna head for dinner.. ciao ppl. Big hugs! And Gary, its not gay u ass.

2006-09-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

When i'm with you, it all seems so perfect, like nothing's changed.
When i'm not with you, i feel miles apart suddenly,
Like i'm no one.
I gotta cope with the consistence that was once there.

Seeing us living our own lives now,
I can't say i like it.
Gary's probably right too. =)

THANKS FOR THE COMING DINNER BRO!
Wish you the happiest 19th birthday.
New age... new resolutions.. new goals.. new clothes.. new school.. new lifestyle.
But friends stay alright!!!
Take care =)

2006-09-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

Haven't posted anything. Well had a great time at Jerry's. Thx everyone for the wonderful meal. I really got nothing much to say. Except i love God always. hah. Night

2006-08-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

Daft Punk - Something Between Us

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

when you'r in need of someone, my heart won't deny you
i'm still there as said ;)

2006-08-22T12:01:00.000+08:00

i don't know. my nightmare has come. tired but can't sleep, and feeling so damn helpless. Never felt so miserable in my whole life. All i want now is still having you by my side, don't just go like that.

You must tell me if u've found someone new. Now its not about waiting till u'r ready to be in a r'ship. Its all about i'm not the one for you, not there yet. I don't know how things turned out so terrible.

I used to hear:
What if you like someone else next time?
I feel i'm not putting in effort yet
U'r so good to me now, what if next time u'r not?
I just need some more time

Well. Life's never ever fair. I'm not trying to make you feel bad, just opening up my feelings.
Letting you know all this while, i've cherished you just as much as the day we started hangin out.

Living in fear, silence, emptiness
No more miss you's, no more kisses

Scorpions - Still loving you

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
I'm loving you

2006-08-09T16:41:00.000+08:00

Lol so its national day. wooo. so fun. can u feel the excitement. -in monotonous voice-

Right now when you are taking a nap right beside me, and i'm sittin here playing the guitar softly. Aircon on, watching you fall asleep. No other noise except a little guitar(and keyboard typing sound while im writing this =x). I don't know, but why does it just feel so peaceful? So calm and still. I sure hope this would never end, coz i'm loving it.

2006-08-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

Great song.. very relevant and meaningful for me, and also its something i really need.
(brackets are muffin comments, hope its not spoiler lol)

Gn'R - Patience

Shed a tear cause I'm missin' you
I'm still alright to smile (of course!)
Girl, I think about you every day now (its true)
Was a time when I wasn't sure (really there was)
But you set my mind at ease (always)
There is no doubt
You're in my heart now (duh)

Said, woman, take it slow
It'll work itself out fine (more like me =p)
All we need is just a little patience (sure hope so!)
Said, sugar, make it slow
And we come together fine (yes c'mon c'mon!)
All we need is just a little patience (mm hmm)

I sit here on the stairs (my house outside hdb stairs with gd view)
Cause I'd rather be alone (not really)
If I can't have you right now
I'll wait, dear (MY FAV LYRIC OF THE SONG)
Sometimes I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time (only God can)
But you know, love
There's one more thing to consider

Said, woman, take it slow

And things will be just fine

You and I'll just use a little patience (i'll really try)

Said, sugar, take the time

Cause the lights are shining bright (curtain nv close, burn my leg in morning)

You and I've got what it takes

To make it, We won't fake it, (of course)

I'll never break it (err.. same)

cause I can't take it (same)

I need you... OOO i need you.. all this timee!!~

hell yeah!

ahaha.. man i ain't funny. night.
hug hugs.

p/s: hahah. Tailsman!

2006-07-22T13:06:00.000+08:00

The times with you are priceless.
Each time i recall the fun times we have,
My heart tickles in a pleasant way.
I'm not saying this too soon,
But i know u'r the one I need.
The sound of strumming of your guitar(or piano, but guitar more adorable),
Sends streams of strong love into me.
Going to whole counter to order food,
Or pretty little plain simple times we share,
Yet the memory stays inked in my head.
You doose your slightest frown, and it alarms me.
Let us pray for the day,
For both of us to be so in love,
Without worrying,

Without a care.
Any single moment with you dear, is truly blissful
Believe me.

Never wanting to hook back,
muffin's love is with you.

2006-07-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

Just need you to know, all your true love is all i need.

i'm just bugged by the fear
can't get over the fear
the fear could just drive me insane
day and night 24/7 im reminded by the fear
it is the fear

of losing YOU and your love

nothing explains your importance to me.

tonight i live in fear.

gdnight dear

2006-07-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

Just accept my apology for not doing much,

But i can say, i've never felt so much happiness before.
It just took me so long to realise you were not kidding. Maybe its because I've always somehow felt i'm just not there. Maybe i'm wrong?

Here right now... my muffin is mine! And all you losers envy me! hehe. Kidding.

Thank you for loving me,
being there for me,
understanding me more than anyone else,
making me feel so needed,
always giving me that priceless feeling.

I hope you feel that way too.
Its gonna be a blast.

hug hugs and big kiss!

2006-07-06T12:17:00.000+08:00

I wake up to your messages.
I sleep with you in my mind.
and this will never change.

Never meant to make you feel less impt.
I never imagined i'd make you feel that way.

hug hugs

2006-06-28T11:19:00.000+08:00

Each time this happens, I can't do anything properly. Knowing i've upset you and made you disappointed. Maybe immature, i don't know. And it bothers me alot knowing i've thought a way i shouldn't have, and is wrong.

I can't lose you, and don't let this affect our feelings for each other, please don't. Or I might just snap =\ . I miss you, and hope you know what I really meant.

muffin's my everything.

love

2006-06-21T03:40:00.000+08:00

Today's a shitty day, but still, an awesome day out with my muff and moo-man(?) rofl. Had Fish n co.. had yummy oysters, lotsa fish.. err.. some stingray.. haha. and also desserts! wtf la. i ordered this creme brulsdfasd thing which sounded awesome. turned out like some egg tart filling in a cup. =( and you 2 got choc cakes and ice cream, for the same price.

and.........

Because of how i smile when you hold me
and how you just cool me down
and how you fix me up when im upset
and how you make me feel so peaceful
and how i feel the warmth with our hug hugs
and how lame we can get
and how much fun we have together
and how much we share together
and how much we're startin to know each other
and its making my feelings stronger ;)
and how your voice soothes me better than strepsils =X
and how we'd just love each others' company
and how much you're here in my heart
and.... i tell you the truth (lol)

baby i need you

Thank you for being by my side

2006-06-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

Woooo! Once in a lifetime date.. gotta blog!

06/06/06

I think its cool la. not that its so called satanic or whatever..
Nothing else to say. hahaha

Oei fungus.. take care miss ya! =D

2006-05-31T01:42:00.000+08:00

If there's someone who really hates their past... its me.

fckin bullshit crap waste of time. I ain't that NO life.
fuck man. the foolishness.. ARGH... FFUCK FUCK FCUCFK UCFKU

I've found my eye drops at last. =)

I MISS YOU.

2006-05-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

Maybe I didn't hold you all those lonely, lonely times,
And I guess I never told you, I'm so happy that you're mine,
If I made you feel second best,
I'm sorry, I was blind.

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died,
Give me, give me one more chance to keep you satisfied,
If I made you feel second best,
I'm sorry, I was blind.

You are always on my mind.

2006-05-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

20th May -

Happy birthday dear Maybelline!!!!!!!!

Had a chalet.. and took awhile to do up the room.. well.. i thought it wasn't bad.. but not nice either.. and the balloons taped to a shape of the letter M.. hahahah damn funny!

And whoa.. i'm a bad drinker.. now i know. Hahahahah got drunk yesterday and acted like some goon. Still think its successful and everyone had a great time. A bacardi and 12 bottles of Heinekens. Next morning.. the room was in a pathetic state la. hahaha. food lying ard everywhere.. ants and flies coming. Feel bad for the aunty to clean it up.

I think took some pics.. will update when bday girl sends me the pics.

Party at cheekys later! bye bye! =)

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN! =D

2006-05-19T03:45:00.000+08:00

You may wonder how you know love
When the moment comes that you've been a-dreamin' of
Well true love takes a little longer
Your heart beats a little stronger
You'll know it's real
Inside you'll feel you're home at last... then
Never let her go
Never let her go~

...

2006-05-17T16:40:00.000+08:00

Just got back........

Thought i'd write a short entry before my bro comes to my place and i go ride.

I miss muffin aka miss large aka giow tou aka hook back aka airhoe aka van diesel. (will update when more comes up)

No matter how dumb or crappy my day can get, she's there to do the perfect thing that makes me smile. Caring for me.. showing so much concern and all those super lame times when we laugh non stop for no reason. hahhah. Its probably coz of all the joy inside me when i'm with you. Just chilling in my room doing nothing all day (coz there's nothing to do also).

Anyway, someone's big day is coming! and i'm running late supposed to be leaving to meet Gary to ride already.

I MISS YOU!!!!! hug hug!

LAST TOUCH!
*runs off*

2006-05-12T03:10:00.000+08:00

Its all about ms large these days.. hahaha.. filling up every part of my mind.
Weeee!

Anyway.. doing flyers lar.. or fliers.. whatever. tiring crap job lol. at least i get to do it whenever i want. And don't have to face stupid customers attitude like my past work. hahaha.

Going from door to door putting the fliers/flyers, waa. realised so many lazy bums man. almost every unit i walk past. there's surely someone in the hall or within my view.. doing nothing. hahaha. just sitting down.. or taking a nap or whatever.

That's my dumb day la. hahaha.. except meeting ms large this morning to see her to school. After that, it got boring. hah. i miss u!

2006-05-04T02:50:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha okok. haven't updated for so long. Doubt no one comes by anyway. I can't sleep la.. walau.. heres today.

I came back abit later la.. coz of some work stuff.. then guess what. Locked outta my own house. Dad got furious saying why i always come home late.. and it was 11:30pm. Rang door.. but door was locked. He purposely lock la. Basket... After so long then open. Then start scolding me.

Early morning wake up to go CMPB in Tiong Bahru to do my NS medical screening.. then take blood la.. check eyes and ears.. check balls.. take x-ray.. put some suction cups on ur tits.. duno measure what.. lol.. and 200+ IQ questions. takes like 2 hours. So last few i didn't bother and just anyhow fill up =X

Then i called Maybie to meet for a while since we're both free in the afternoon. Met at Compass to eat KFC.. heh. Tsk tsk.. don't think i didn't notice that piece of chicken crust you drop. hahahaha. OH YA. its my first time eating a Zinger also. Not bad actually. When i first saw it.. looks dry dry and plain.. actually tastes yummy. =D

Sadly later i gotta go work.. and she's meeting her friends. So had to go. =(

THEN.. after that when i thought i could go home. Dad make noise and lock me outside. Worst thing is.... now i have curfew lar. 11pm he lock the door. how?!? Not gna talk to parents for a while. REBEL! lol no la.. i so guai.. model student for 3 years in primary school k! :P

So yeah. that's abt it. Very tired now. gdnite ppl!

AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

2006-04-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

That stroll to the petfarm, playing the guitar by the stairs, looking into the rainy skies, looking back at pictures, watching the view at esplanade, enjoying a jazz play, eating ice cream. When walking starts becoming more enjoyable than transport. That way i feel,

Priceless.

2006-04-18T11:44:00.000+08:00

Scorpions rock!!! :P

2006-04-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

Hahahahah. haven't updated for awhile. Really.. nothing interesting for the last few days that you guys would be interested to hear about. So there's not much of a point bloggin down. Unless i wanna remember the occasions. Heh

Okay.. went to meet Faiz this afternoon. Then we went down to.... Starhub! at North bridge building or something. To look for a job. Well its a telemarketing thing kinda work. Part time. 4 hours a day. Great.. just what we need. =)

And.... nothing much la. besides bringin my comp down to Sim Lim to change motherboard. My 180 dollars =(.

Okay. will update when something's happening again. hahaha. Going jamming soon. Will try get some pictures inside. Ciao ppl!

2006-04-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

Back to the drawing board!

Well not really. Sometimes its good to just not dwell about something. Just go on and the next thing you know, u'r in luck again! Every right move falling into place, and just.. happen like that. You won't know what im saying coz its for myself to know only. heh heh.

Anyway, life's been busy, but interesting. Doing new stuff everyday. Going jamming soon! Riding at night with my bestfriends.. Slackin, having laughs and talkin bout our lives. Man, it doesn't get better really!

How i see life, studies, my future, career stuff. Its all changed. I know what i want to be already and i'm working for it. Everything good requires effort and hard work. There's no such thing as chillin' around and waiting for luxury and stuff to come by.

BTW....... Faiz and friends are back from Maldives! Can't wait to meet him up again man! Miss them!

2006-03-30T01:02:00.000+08:00

Woooo. Fixin up guitar soon. Can't wait to SHRED. hahah.

Life's been busy, in a good way. Going out early and coming home at night. Tired and just online for a while and im off to bed for the next day. hahaha.

GUESS WHAT! Tomorrow meeting Sean and friends to go LAN Gaming!! After like, more than a year of not touching games. Omg, hope i still got my 5K!lLz and don't get pwned. haha. My nick's gonna be something really dumb, since Sean's is BLADEMASTER. LMAO! HAHA. Hilarious guy.

Can't believe i ate so much today. Went to City Plaza to eat the handmade beehoon or something. Then after that bought some famous duck rice to eat. Now i'm eating Banana Nut Crunch Cereal. All squeezed into dinner time. Hahaha yeah i'm greedy. so? i still got room for ice cream okay.

Gotta get some tv and sleep now. Can't be a freefrag tmr! hahaha. Too bad Gary can't join us coz he's got school. I'll msg him tmr to see if he can join us. JOIN MY TEAM! Lets PWN EM' NOOBS! Hahah.

Hate Gn'R and you're not my friend! :P

Loaded like a freight train
Flyin' like an aeroplane
Speedin' like a space brain
One more time tonight!

2006-03-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

Asia Pac BikeTrial competition at Sentosa last Saturday and Sunday. The Japanese riders sure are good. Anyways.. so many falls at the section i was at. Blood everywhere. hahaha. Luckily no one broke bones, except for this guy that broke his finger.

Its been just fine these few days for me. Looking for full time work. Didn't update much. What's there to update anyway. Im blogging for myself to read. Kinda stupid. I so need to spend on my bike and guitars. Heh heh.

Gonna meet my classmates later for a drink over at Tampines. Been awhile since we met! Can't wait to talk to them. My dad's been away in India for so long. India's known for slow work progression btw. I kinda miss him too.

Thats it for now. Will update again =)

2006-03-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

How's the new pic on my skin! SLASH OWNS. Many thx to the artist!

Just back from going out with Sean and Gary. Great hangin out with them. Thanks to Sean i've been kinda hooked to Air Supply stuff. Especially this song - I Can Wait Forever and Can't Fight This Feeling. Thought its ok at first until i heard it again. NICE! Meaningful too.

We met at Tampines then headed to Meiting's grandfather's funeral. Sean and I didn't really know what to do since we weren't buddhists, looking at Sean, man his face just makes me wanna burst out and laugh all the time. Sean sean.. haha. So we decided, just bow twice. Hope we did the right thing! Anyway sat around and chatted and had dinner until bout 6 plus.

Went over to Ram's shop to supposedly have a 'briefing'. Oh well we left early since we didnt know the people there. Just collected our passes and left. And ice breaking is so needed there pls.

Went back to Tampines! hahahaa.. Gary and i tried Initial D 3! Ok la.. ain't that bad. Just not my kinda racing game. Not addictive.. like OUTRUN 2!! I challenged Sean to a game of Outrun 2 la. WALAU. As usual.. I LOST BY AN INCH LA. Just behind him a lil only. Stupid dickhead. But we're pro man who's up for a vs. ;)

I've been staying home for a bit. I'm heading out to look for a short job. Heh heh! In comes the MONAYY.. and my NAD CD Player(whoa.. wonder how its gonna sound with my Elac bookshelf speakers and Musical Fidelity Amp.. u jealous asses), Gibson Les Paul (not so soon), Red wing and timberland boots.. aaaannnnd... Bike stuff!!! Muahahaha.

Yes its gonna be a suffering time for us for quite a while.
hey, but somehow, we're like an unsnappable rubberband! ha corny

we'll work smthin out

2006-03-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

Some songs just say and relate it all. heh.

Scorpions - Always Somewhere

Arrive at seven the place feels good
No time to call you today
Encores till eleven then Chinese food
Back to the hotel again

I call your number the line ain't free
I like to tell you come to me

A night without you seems like a lost dream
Love I can't tell you how I feel

Always somewhere
Miss you where I've been
I'll be back to love you again

Another morning another place
The only day off is far away
But every city has seen me in the end
And brings me to you again

Always somewhere
Miss you where I've been
I'll be back to love you again

Im off to bed. Cya aroundddddd

2006-03-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

So much for ZOUK.

Well.. went out to meet Gary, Sean and Faiz at Pasir Ris to go to Zouk later.
Then took a cab there.. walked around and slacked outside one of the kopitiams near Zouk. Had 4 bottles of Carlsberg. heh.

After that we went to wait for our friends near the bridge there. LL and Lina with their 2 friends came. Then later on Meiting came also. haha. So we queued at the bloody long queue for like.. 1hour.. and we were still at the back of the queue. WEIRD. So we found our way to err.. smuggle ourselves into the midway of the queue.. then got in after a while.

ZOUK's entrance was pretty cool. Until you see the amount of ppl squeezing to get to the dance floor. Whoa. Damn sian.. tho there's a temptation to crowdsurf jumping from upper level. hahahah. =X

We were just squeezing around.. and pushed this guy real hard.. and then he said "wtf you want!" Me and Gary just stared back at him.. he look away. Hahahah. pussy. So yeah.. just moved ard and stuff till it ended.. which was about 3.20am. When on the paper it reads 4am.

Overall okay la. Think coz of the lame crappy crowd. Really lousy. Or too crowded or smthin. Man. I still liked Chinablack. Sweet Child O' Mine.. Song2.. cool songs la! haha.

I'm off to eat some cornflakes.. SAM darl's at her Adam Khoo camp.. She's liking it surprisingly! Happy for her that its good. heh! But its crazy la. 8am-11pm. She reached home at like.. 12+ yesterday. AND I'M MISSING YOU.. =(

Ciao!

2006-03-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

Look out and down your window. U'r 1 step away from vanishing.

2006-03-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

Whoa.. parents left overseas yesterday. Its awfully quiet at home now. Heh.

Met up with SAM darl at 1 today and went over to catch Date Movie. Stupid ass aunty at Lido didn't allow me to get tickets because it was NC16. Pfft. As if Lido's e best.

Headed to Cineleisure instead. Better theaters and we got in! Well the show's just alright i guess. Really lame. Giggles throughout the show but not much of big laughters. Some predictable humour too. Show overall 5/10. Funnyness 5/10 too. In a nutshell.. not worth watching.

After then, around dinner time we headed back and talked to Sam for a while. Great fun we had in the HMV making fun of some twit-ish CD covers like Jolin. No offence to fans, but its true. Hahahhah.

Not feeling my best right now. Take care sweetheart, remember that i'm there!

Gonna end here.

2006-03-12T14:00:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna be home alone again! besides grandma and maid la. haha. Parents away. It does get boring tho.

Been going to SIM to ask a few questions and back again. Oh my god. 1 of them can't respond for nuts la. hahaha. I asked and asked until her wide smile turned into an expressionless face. Hah. loser.

Met up with Gary and Sean yesterday. Going out with Sean is always lame as ever. Hahah. Then we headed over to Jean's birthday thingy. Small invitation. We just ate and talked since we didn't see much since school ended. The 3 of us got bored and started throwing sotong balls down at the cars parked downstairs. we were pretty high up. Man. Ain't as easy as it seems. Out of the many balls.. NONE actually hit a car la.. hahahahah.

So after that we left to slack around. Really boring after midnight since there's nowhere aircon and the weather was so crap yesterday. Decided to settle down at the Kopitiam in Drive6. I had lousy cheng tng. =(

Well was pretty much boring yesterday. And i'm missing Sam darlin so much!!! =Gonna grab a bite. seeya ppl

2006-03-07T03:34:00.000+08:00

Man.. its about 3:30am. I can't get myself to sleep. Been tossing ard in bed for so long..
Thinkin bout SAM so much.
Those quick lil meetings we have here and there
Laughters and fine times on e bus back
Just makes me think on and on bout her. heh.

Anyways.. this song somewhat kept playing in my head just now, and i thought its an awesome song to relate to. Cliche but.... just want you to know! Love you darl!

Its the glam rockers Motley Crue's - Without You.

Without you, there's no change
My nights and days are grey
If I reached out and touched the rain
It just wouldn't feel the same

Without you, I'd be lost
I'd slip down from the top
I'd slide down so low
Girl you'd never, never know...

Without you, without you
A sailor lost at sea
Without you, woman
The world comes down on me

Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...

Without you, my hope is small
Let me be me all along
You let the fires rage inside
Knowing someday I'd grow strong

I could face a mountain
But I could never climb alone
I could start another day
But how many, just don't know
You're the reason the sun shines down
And the nights, they don't grow cold
Only you that I'll hold when I'm young
Only you...as we grow old

There.. Think they're awesome lyrics.
The song's superb too! Honey go hear if you haven't!
Gotta try get my mind to sleep now.

Seeya ard ppl! =D

2006-03-05T02:19:00.000+08:00

Welly welly welly!!!

Its a special day! 5th.. Sam and I.. Its our 2 month together. Had such a blast since. =D
Sucha lucky ass i am.

I'm like super tired man.

Went out this morning to meet Gary, LL and SAM darl! Headed down to Jalan Kayu to try out the "best" prata around. Erm. Aiyoeh not very good la.. Even the huge food critic who sat beside us said it ain't standard no more. Met Fandi Ahmad there too. He's like a nobody now. hahahahaha.

Its been so long since Sam and I got to go out.. Finaallllly.. out for prata somemore! Hee. Then followed Gary to Admiralty MRT to meet the "guy" (eeee) whom he's gonna get his anime from.
Then! We went to Junction8 to shop around! Fun fun fun! Making fun of those twits and all.. Whenever we see them.. we do the.. errr.. 2 finger act cute kawaii bullshit thing. Kept on laughing.. and saw this really cool Ven Butch trucker cap. LOL. Hilarious stuff they got in Minitoons.

Shortly after LL left to go home to change.. and later Sam went to meet her Primary school mates.. some gathering thing.. Took cab with her to the place where she's meetin em. Taxi ride was awesome la! ;)

Yup.. and i was left suffering throughout the whole day without her.. hahaha

Gary followed me to Suntec where i needed to ask about private diploma courses and stuff. It sure was boring and crowded. Made our way out quick then went on to meet LL and Lina.

Dunno why in the afternoon i got kinda tired la.. Sry guys didn't mean to be emo! But was just like.. lethargic and sian also la. Heh.. Ate at NYDC.. where Gary got his free soup coz they cock up the order and he waited very long for his meatBALLS spaghetti.

While eating there was this band playing nearby. Some local band.. playing Stone Temple Pilot's Plush. God. Someone turn off the mic and burn the amps. It was pathetic la.. NO style in e band.. No energy at all.. no movement. Gay la.. think if Gary and I and our group form a band.. It'll easy kick much more ass. And we'll have guitar solo's and even Bass solos.. haha!

Yea yea.. then we walked around abit and met Faiz, Ali and Raheel for a short while. Faiz still his lame self. Slacked at mac for like.. almost 1/2 hr only. Beside us were seated this group of some satanic black metal group la. Looked like a bunch of jokes. Ali was shining Gary's hp light around.. and i thought.. wah.. imagine shine over to them and they go.. "NOOO.. TURN IT OFF.. ARRGH IM BURNIN AND MELTIN!" hahahaha

Yeap then we took the bus home. End of day.

Once again Sam darling... LOVE YOU!

2006-03-03T12:13:00.000+08:00

Great. Checked MOE site for posting results. Here's mine.

"We regret to inform you that you are unsuccessful in your application. However, if you wish to apply to a particular course, you may approach the institution concerned directly. The institution concerned will inform you of the outcome of your application."

Fuck la. Shitfaces. Regret to inform my big fat ass la. Whats the point of being eligible when you put 10 fucking courses down on your choices and you get into NONE. Might as well be not eligible for it la. Bitch.

My friend Sean got 20points, and got a dumb IT course which he hates. He's thinking of private at PSB Academy. See how stupid it is? Its no different from failing your O's.

argh

2006-03-01T18:46:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha.. Had a whole time of laughter with Sam darl just now. Talking about the uncommon or abnormal people in our schools. Heh heh. Damn funny la. I was laughing like crazy. The soya bean stall beside the Mac at Serangoon central is great to slack. heh. Time sure flies. =D

Anyway, woke up this morning to a quarrell with my mom. She was asking me about the functions on her new phone. I told her again.. and she didn't get it. I admit i don't have that sort of patience to teach ppl stuff. Don't know whats with my frustration nowadays. Sigh..

Then, she got angry; saying how impatient i am. "Aiya forget it la. don't teach la. I can figure out myself la". Didn't end there tho. Her anger always lead her to say the most hurtful things. I don't know why she always mentions such stuff when we argue.

She said stuff just now.. that just makes me feel crap and wanna hop out of my window. Saying that ur seriously useless. Ouch.

"All my 4 children.. all useless one la. Like you(me). Studies also lousy, not good at anything, never make me proud before. I'd rather not give birth to you la". and "Only know how to eat and go out".

Ppl usually tell me "aiya don't bother so much bout what they say la". Ha. How can you ignore something like that. It still gets to you somehow right? Oh well. Don't wanna talk much about it. I can't get along with her as well as how i used to anymore.

hate my beng hair.

2006-02-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

Well...... It's been 1 week since i updated. My Mondays are always so happening. heh. Went to see Sam darl after her school ended.

We thought of having Spizza since i thought it was a great restaurant and ain't pricey too. We headed to the one at Club Street since the other one in Holland V's further. Walked and talked nonsense all the way to the MRT. Got to the nearest station - Chinatown.

We were like tourists there lah. hahaha. "eh.. go which way ah.. i think left nicer". Then we headed left. heh. Aimless walking is awesome la. Kinda fun also.. not knowing where you'll end up. Couldn't find Spizza so we got a cab there.

Guess what, it was CLOSED. closed at 3pm. Opens again at 6pm. argh. Had no choice, so we walked around Chinatown.. eventually reached this O'Brien's Irish Sandwiches coffeehouse. Beside it was the 7-11 where me, Gary and the rest that went clubbing few days back were slacking at man! Still remember, everyone lying around the outside after the party ended.

The sandwiches there were okay only la. I got this 3 layer sandwich which i couldn't finish. Sam got this yummy looking one. =( Our drinks were the Frutti Tutti and Wild Berries smoothies. Smoothies ain't bad. heh. So we just sat around and talked our afternoon away. And my twit poses are awesome aren't they. hahahah.. kAwAiI!

Later on we did aimless walking again. Great fun man i tell you. Going ard random areas. Supposed to get to nearest Station. We walked on and on.. and BAM! Raffles City MRT ahead of us. =D Then sent her back.

Ooooh. Must go for a haircut tmr. Mom's naggin that my hair's long. =No idea what to cut. Sick of the same old haircut.

Gonna check out reviews on guitar pedals for now. heh.

2006-02-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

Well well... nothing much happened these few days i guess, till i got nothin much to blog bout. However, everything's still good and its been great! =)

Headed down to Serangoon to see Sam darl, LL and Nurul. I got onto a cab and said:

Me: Uncle, Serangoon Avenue 4, outside the bus stop there
Driver: No north ah. Just Serangoon?
Me: Yeah. Just Serangoon. Not Serangoon North
Driver: Eh! You go there for what, there is the gunshot place right?!
Me: Err, yeah. Just going to meet my friends. There's their school
Driver: Careful ah i tell you! There ah, still dangerous ah
Me: Hahaha.
Driver: You know ah, Singapore not safe already. Last time got one time, all parang robbery. Now, all gun robbery ah. Our society getting fierce you know. I taxi driver also scared, sometimes i see the person suspicious one ah, i don't take him, he might rob me.

Then he goes on with his views on the political ways of Singapore. He's so lame lah. Don't even know what's the real cause of the gunshots. Talking like he knows everything. Haha. But since i've got nothing to do, i just went on to converse with him. Its pretty fun talking to drivers when ur on a cab. Some cabbies are real nice man. This driver even offered me his sweets.

Right. After that interesting conversation, got off and met them. Wanted to call Gary along but he ends sch at 4+. Stupid Siglap sec end so late. Anyways, headed to Sushi Tei. (is it Sushi Tei as in TIE or TAY?) It was ok, and sometimes i feel there's not enough variety in their sushis. Its not fair their red plates are sooo much better. And when ur there, never forget to grab a plate of green beans to play around with. Loads of cheap thrillin' fun! Right guys? haha.

We spent like, the whole day there. Slackin and talking nonsense. hahahaha. The wasabi there is weak la. Gay crap. There's this special "5x hotter; 5x the kick!" wasabi or something. Nothing much la. They make it sound so strong. Sam darl and I took so much. We COATED the whole sushi with it and ate up. Heh. Not strong one. We're cool. ;)

Went on fooling around and all and somehow discussed about me piercing my ear. Since i wanted one they followed me to pierce later on after our meal. We had 31 plates of Sushis man. Imagine the amount of rice accumulated. Whoa! But however much i eat, i don't seem to put on weight. Heh heh. greedy me.

Looked around and went to 77th Street (pls la it was e only shop there that has a piercing service) to pierce my ear. Of course i was kinda nervous la. First time what. hee. Turned out to be nothing. Not pain la, actually just a little warm feeling after a while. Actually, it is fun! Lets see what's next. Industrial pierce? haha.

Shortly after we just left for home and i sent Sam back. Had a great time man. Weee~

Then i remembered i had to go to Sim Lim to buy some toner for my laser printer. Its outta ink and must get the fake toner from Sim lim. Original's about $120. Fake's about $30. Heh heh. But when i reached, the shops are all closed la. Pissed me off and that's when i got hungry again and faster left to go home for dinner. Went back to eat like, 2 bowls of rice and a huge bowl of soup. Sam and my mom both said i got a tape worm in my stomach. haha. Can't imagine if there's really one. eww sick.

Bringing my electric guitar to a recommended luthier to get it overhauled and fixed up. Also thinking of officially taking up guitar classes. Still considering tho.

Man.. gonna watch some MTV now. Sigh if only there was more rock on it. Ciao ppl!

2006-02-17T10:06:00.000+08:00

Whoa. Woke up at 7am this morning. As you know i'm a deep sleeper that takes 1 hour to slowly get up from bed. But.... what woke me up this morning? My mom screaming and shouting at the maid. wahaha!

Being kaypo by nature, i went out of my room to see what was happening.. guess what! Early this morning my mom couldn't sleep so she went to the kitchen to get a glass of water and caught the maid sitting in the balcony corner EATING my POPS CEREAL with HL milk without asking. THAT ASSWIPE... GRRR. Of the different cereals i got like koko krunch, Banana Nut Crunch, Frosties and Pops.. She gotta steal my favourite POPS la. =(

And now, i can't sleep.. weird i'm not feeling very tired. Hee.. thinkin bout someone. ;)

Think Gary's coming over to my house later when he finishes school to do some stenciling on his D&T File. My stencils are screwing up man, and i haven't been cutting new ones. I've got a 2 layer rock guitar stencil and a 1 layer Gas mask stencil in mind. Gonna turn out great!

Went riding with Gary at the park as usual yesterday.. i was just riding behind him.. and i saw him attempt a manual. I was like.. wa... but THEN, he went too high up.. then jammed on back brakes. Uh oh. Bad move i tell you. hahahahaha.

Came down hard and frontflipped. Bike got hooked INTO the air la and landed on him. Damn drama man. Ended up with a bruised cheek, scraped shoulder and arm, and a painful inner thigh.

Oh well, gonna blast some Velvet Revolver now.. Woooo!~

2006-02-15T02:23:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. oh God.. i'm feeling the shit right now. ugh. Been thinking alot. Its about time i did something about my idle self. I need an aim, something to spur me on. Its time i focused in life, make things happen instead of doing 'half effort' work. Gotta be more proactive and kick that nasty 'can't be bothered' attitude of mine in a certain way. Sloth may be my greatest sin now. Laziness gets you nowhere.

You know, looking at the pathetic courses you're being offered and having no choice but to choose them. I don't want to. I'm not settling for anything less btw. 'Always start with the end in mind', my bro told me that; quite obvious but made sense too. Being in the business management industry is what i want. Now that i've realised, it's a little too late with my poor grades.

Sure, i can enter courses like engineering and all. But I want a very bright future which i know Business management and consulting work can assure me that. Going into a course for the sake of avoiding ite or smthin, that's just dumb and its gonna screw up your future. Moreover, my interest is there in Business management. Sam darl has showed me motivation too, thx!

Now that things have knocked senses into my head, I feel retarded not studying for my O's. Hate to say this but i totally regret tho there's no point. For those of you taking O's, hope this helps. A whole year i spent doing useless stuff, things that are of no benefit. I could have studied.
All i can do now is register my possible business courses and hope for the Direct Admission to accept me. If not, retaking my O's is all worth it for something i really want since i have that career in mind. As usual, i always learn things the hard way.

Meh... i'm off for a bite.. feeling crap about myself.. screwed up shit. Argh. Where has all my self discipline gone to.

2006-02-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

Went to Temasek Poly this morning to look for a chance to get into the School of Business. Oh well, some lecturers weren't very nice. I ended up doing the Direct Admission there. Hopefully get my chance in. =)

Then! Headed down to meet Sam darl who was with Jeanie at Mac. I then gave Sam my Gerbera daisy flower! Its cooler than roses ok. Later on Jeanie left and we went to Cartel to get some ice cream. Gave Sam her 'Pops cereal' Pressie too! When she opened it, she was like "You eat already then give me?!" Thx to Gary for the idea =P

Oh man.. then she gave me a "This book will change your life again!" book. Its actually a book full of random stuff to do for the 365 days in the year. To ruin your routined life! And she MADE and SEWED a bookmark thing for me on it too ok! I love it soooo much! =D

After that we just slacked at talked at Cartel all the way. Had so much to say. Seemed like 10 minutes when hours actually flew by. Heh.

My first ever Valentine's gift and date!
Simple yet most memorable. Love you!

2006-02-13T21:05:00.000+08:00

Wooo! Officially my first post.

Oh well, it won't be very happening here too, Since i've got a small circle of friends. Gonna be cool tho, reading up the archives in the future. I'd never thought i would have a blog, always thought it was something lame. Come to think of it, its pretty cool!

I've got a baaaaaad grade for my O's. Thanks to our education system, i'm not eligible for the Business courses in the Polys' which i find really interesting. Organizational behaviour and stuff. Moreover, this industry is one of those at the higher levels, rather than engineering and others. So i believe there's a better chance of a bridge to further studies after my business diploma; that is if i make it. Heading down to Temasek Poly early tmr morning hoping for a chance at the course and an appeal. Pfft. No point regretting not studying harder during my Sec 5 year. So please work hard! Its gonna be all worth it. =)

Tmr's Valentine's day! So excited. Weeee~
gtg do my registration admissions stuff now. Ciao